Untitled.. (again)

This path,
Wasn't meant to be touched...
The bitterness placed its hands upon it..
And this place we left behind contains a recollection of the deep explorations and admirations,
Never once I would of thought I'd have...
I still feel the heat of the burning candle between you and I..
Do you still feel it?
That heat..
I call sweet sorrow..

In your dreams, several of them remained
Never had you in featured at all
And did you know? Oh no.

I wish I never met you
I wish I never kissed you
And told you that I missed you.

I wish I didn’t write stupid poems
To try and convince you to be with me
I wish I wouldn’t stop by your house just because I could.

What are we doing here
You fuck with boys’ minds
But why do you keep me around?

I wanted you
Now, I can’t even be in the same room with you
Just go.

Don’t talk to me
Don’t visit me
Just disappear

Leave my heart
Leave my soul
And everything about me as a whole.

Get me another drink
So I can wash your memory out of my veins
Kill some cells to leave this hell
It’s the only thing that helps.

I wish every star would explode and make me go deaf
And I wish the moon’s light would soon fade to black
So that I cannot see or hear
Maybe then I’ll forget the sound of your heartbeat under the night sky.

I wish I wasn’t so stupid
To stick around while you cried over some asshole who didn’t want you
I wish I didn’t care so fucking much about your problems.

I wish I never told you how much I loved you
And all those times I spent comforting you...
Were just never quite enough.

Why you!
This was never supposed to be
Just stop caring and leave.

We go in circles anyway
Progress is an illusion for what resembles hope
I wish I could hurt you.
Scar you.
Quit you.
Leave you.

You never loved me…
Only my presence to help you forget your pain
Used me up, and now I have no pity left for you.

If you loved me, then you should have caught me when I fell for you
For a whole year
Now my love for you is lying dead at the bottom of a dark trench.

I wish we never took so many pictures
Ones that I never should have taken
What were we thinking?

It took the death of hope to let you go
And now I finally know…

Stay cold and alone in your bed
Without the warmth of the blue jacket
Or the sweet aroma of my cologne

I hope you hurt just as much as I do
I hope your guilt eats you alive
And you grasp what was lost

I hope when your eyes visit the moon
You realize the distance back to your heart
And remember how far I loved you.

I wish I could forget you
And everything we ever had
Don’t you get it?

I don’t care about you.
I don’t care about your needs.
I don’t care about your feelings.
But I do.

Maybe one day our hearts will bring us back home
Right here to the place where we’d meet
Where hope and dreams walk hand in hand
Where reality meets actuality
Where love is the only thing that matters.
And where the death of hope becomes the birth of new possibilities.

When you look into my eyes they may seem to be empty,
My eyes are full of tears, although you don't see any.

So many times my heart has been filled with pain,
And deep behind my eyes are pockets of tears that are ready to fall like rain.

I know at times I may appear to be tough,
but sometimes to bear the pain and heartache can be too much.

Sometimes I try and hide the tears that I cried just last night,
Tears that soaked my pillow wet long past mornings first light.

I know how it feels to be pushed away by someone you love,
I'm not afraid to admit my tears because I know that there's a far greater love, one that comes from above.

Happiness too will be mine, so until then I'll keep my head up and eyes towards the skies,
And never allowing anyone to see the tears hidden behind my eyes.

Against Haunting thoughts
horrific dreams,
Where I die every time.
They say that your dreams outline what you want.

So, I want to suffer
To die alone and afraid.
It's true after what happened between us
I don't feel I deserve to live

I know, it hurts
the storm has come and gone
leaving you and I
broken in ruins but this cant be where i die

I needed someone that protected me from my self
and you never could
and so i move on from this place
with a heavy heart all alone

The memories held me down for so long
because i couldn't just let go of you
and it still hurts
but i know now what i must do to survive this place

There is nothing left
and i desperately rebuild my life
from the broken pieces
you left of my heart on the floor

Time is no friend as she burns the wound shut
and the tears they flow like blood from a cut
But i need to be strong with one foot after another
i just have to move on

Because you’ve left me to rot all alone.
I can't stop crying today
My world walked out the door
With him he took my heart
For I will love no more

The hours passed like seconds
When our two hearts were one
The seconds passed like hours
After he said that he was done

He was going to love me forever
At least that is what he said
Him heart belonged to someone else
That is what him letter read

I no longer live in color
My world is black and white
I always wonder what he is doing
As I lie awake at night

I hope tomorrow is better
This is what I pray
But right now my heart is broken
I can't stop crying today

Favorite song plays in the background
Every lyric reminding me of you
Conversations running through my head
So many things that I wish you knew

Everytime that you brought me happiness
I just never quite knew what to say
I was afraid to say the wrong thing
Thinking it would make you go away

Every night I did the same old thing
I wrote poem after poem on my bed
I love you written a hundred ways
Because of fear, they were never said

The stack of poems stands tall
Not one ever making it to you
You simply walked away from me
And a love that you never knew

If only I would have taken a chance
I know that you would still be here
At night I still write you many poems
Only now the ink is mixed with tears

Sitting here starring at a wall,
Waiting for the day that you call,
I want to talk to you,
Let alone be with you,
Sitting here in a corner can't you see,
All these tears aren't good for me

I would give up everything,
All of my dreams and my friends,
I would just enjoy being around you,
Not just for love,
I may love you,
And I know it isn't in return,
Now I'm crying here,
My heart starts to burn.

These lies,
Cripple my heart,
These lies,
Stop me from feeling,
These lies,
Completely break me.

I was told to be happy,
I cannot with myself,
All alone,
My heart is turning to stone,
The marrow in my bones settle,
All of it is going down through the phone,
What the fuck is up with this world,
My world...

My world of death,
All my friends and loved in a room,
They start to fall one by one,
What has my life become?
Holding a guitar tempted to strum,
To the beat my heart refuses to give,
But to turn the rest of me.

My heart and feelings no longer function,
It's all just one conjunction of lies and threats.
I want you and no-one else,
This is when I cling to myself,
But I have nothing to cling to...

with every touch,
my heart raced,
I only wish i could have taken your place.

You loved me,
from the very start.
If only I'd known sooner,
our love could have lasted longer.

Our love was not meant to be,
so we were torn apart
with that shiny bullet,
through your heart.

What wrong did we do in this world,
other than to dare be different.
Our hearts beat like everyone elses,
so why do people think that they couldn't love and feel pain.
We're all the same,
though in our looks we range.

I`m thinking about what you said
And it makes me wish that I were dead
You only loved me when you were mine
But I`ll love you till the end of time
If you fall for someone else
It will make my life a living hell
My love for you will never die
Even if you aren't mine
And when you fall for me again
I`ll be hanging from a rope loving you while I`m dead.

Another day,
Another line.
You choose her,
time after time.

I'll write yet another,
poem about why I'm sad.
I'm so sick of it all,
I miss feeling glad.

I'm tired of writing,
these poems that never put me at ease.
If someone knows the way out of this heartache,
Don't hesistate to tell me, please.

People say "You'll be okay",
And smile right at you.
And your thinking," Yeah right,
you don't know what I'm going through".

Do you know what it's like to feel,
like you'll never feel happy?
Or what it's like to feel like you have to scratch your eyes out,
Just so you couldn't see?.

Even as I write these words,
my breath is filled with sighs.
Because they remind me of you,
so I slowly begin to cry.

It's not fair,
this feeling that's left me bare.
It's not fair that I'm still missing you,
and you don't even care.

You made that obvious,
when you let my world turn dark.
I stare lifelessy at everyone,
On my heart, you left a mark.

My poem is done,
my feelings have been told.
I hope you remember my words,
Til' the day you are grey and old...